All Alone
Well I just got back from the airport. My family is going to Europe for a month, and I get to stay home, alone. The house is all to myself. And yet I am not as happy about it as I thought I would be. In fact I am a little depressed.
It's not the fact that they get to go and I don't. I mean I am a little jellous, but who wouldn't be? A trip to Italy and Germany for a month would be great. But I am not that jellous because I did get to go last year for 3 weeks and most of them stayed behind. So its not that.
No the reason I am depressed is that I am really going to miss them, especialy my 2 cousins and my sister and brother-in-law. I'm not getting sentimental here, its just the fact that because they are gone it hilights the fact that I am alone.
Most of my friends have either moved away, or have gotten married and have very little time for me. I have very few friends available to spend time with. However, the last little bit I have noticed that I have spent a huge amount of time with my family, and we have been having a great time together. Now that they are gone, even just for a few weeks, it emphisizes the point that I have few friends and just how lonely I really am. That stings.
On the ride home from the airport, I started to think about what would happen if they too were to leave or move on for good. Then what would happen to me? Would I be alone forever? I don't think I could take that.
This is going to be a tough month, one where I am going to have to do a lot of soul searching. I have to get out of this vicious cycle of lonelyness. I just hope I am not too late. I probebly am.
It's not the fact that they get to go and I don't. I mean I am a little jellous, but who wouldn't be? A trip to Italy and Germany for a month would be great. But I am not that jellous because I did get to go last year for 3 weeks and most of them stayed behind. So its not that.
No the reason I am depressed is that I am really going to miss them, especialy my 2 cousins and my sister and brother-in-law. I'm not getting sentimental here, its just the fact that because they are gone it hilights the fact that I am alone.
Most of my friends have either moved away, or have gotten married and have very little time for me. I have very few friends available to spend time with. However, the last little bit I have noticed that I have spent a huge amount of time with my family, and we have been having a great time together. Now that they are gone, even just for a few weeks, it emphisizes the point that I have few friends and just how lonely I really am. That stings.
On the ride home from the airport, I started to think about what would happen if they too were to leave or move on for good. Then what would happen to me? Would I be alone forever? I don't think I could take that.
This is going to be a tough month, one where I am going to have to do a lot of soul searching. I have to get out of this vicious cycle of lonelyness. I just hope I am not too late. I probebly am.
posted by The Cube at 1:46 PM
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