Credit Limit
All this week we have been preparing for Accreditation at work. Well let me rephrase that, us lowly workers are are preparing. To be honest I'm not entirely sure what this accreditation is about. Basically from what I am told it is a document stating that our company meets some standards of this firm that credits companies. In the long run it really doesn't affect us one bit. Our working standards are exceedingly high, and we are the leaders in our industry. Besides it is not like we get anything out it. Our funding is set, and it's not like they would ever cut it. Hell even if they do we'd just go private, and it would make life much easier. However, this accreditation this is important to our bosses, mainly because of their pride. And so we all pitch in and work extra hard to get it. I really don't know why I am working all these extra hours, maybe I am just a nice guy, maybe it is a sense of duty, maybe it is...... well I don't know. But sometimes when something is important to someone else, even if it is meaningless or even hurtful to you, you help out because it is the right thing to do.
I've been thinking about that concept. I've been in this position so many times, helping others out even though it puts me in the deep. Does that make me a good person? Does it make me a bad person to say that I resent doing it? I've gotten tired of helping people out all the time with me never getting anything out of it. Call it selfish if you want, but it wears you out eventually, especially when if you need a hand there is never anyone around. Maybe I am selfish for saying it but it is how I feel. I'm a tired man, maybe next time I'll just say no.
Who am I kidding, it's just not me. I'll forever be the doormat, yet I'll always be there when they call. That's just who I am, even if I don't want it to be.
I've been thinking about that concept. I've been in this position so many times, helping others out even though it puts me in the deep. Does that make me a good person? Does it make me a bad person to say that I resent doing it? I've gotten tired of helping people out all the time with me never getting anything out of it. Call it selfish if you want, but it wears you out eventually, especially when if you need a hand there is never anyone around. Maybe I am selfish for saying it but it is how I feel. I'm a tired man, maybe next time I'll just say no.
Who am I kidding, it's just not me. I'll forever be the doormat, yet I'll always be there when they call. That's just who I am, even if I don't want it to be.
posted by The Cube at 5:28 PM
2 Comments:
Personally, I think it's a mistake to equate being nice and helpful with being a doormat. One can be strong and resilent and self assured and all of those things while still being thoughtful, generous, and, well, nice. In fact, kindness becomes a kind of strength, per se. It's MUCH easier to go through this life telling everyone where to go, I think.
I like the last paragraph, where you seem to own who you are.
It's not the idea of being nice that I veiw as bad. I compleatly agree with you, kindness IS a strength, one that too many people on this earth do not have. What does bother me is my inabilaty to say no. I would like to have that strength, to say that I need time for myself. But in the end, I am who I am. and that is all I can be.
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