A day in their shoes

I would give anything to get out of this funk. All I really want is a change, a chance to have a different life. And the worse part is that the life I want is someone elses. I'm not going to mention who they are, but it suffices to say they are people I know quite well. I would give anything to spend a day in their shoes. Even if I was told that it would be my last day on earth, I would take it. I need to know how life could have been.

I say this not because of massive jeliousy, but rather out of admaration of their life. I don't begrudge them the way they live. They deserve to have it so good, they are good people and I wish the best for them, its just that I wish I could have a taste of it too. Not to say that they don't have their problems, everyone does. It's just that, for them, their problems seam to be resolved positivly. Besides there are a lot more good times than bad, which is the diametric oposite to me.

I know this sounds bitter and pathetic, desiring a life that is not mine, but really it is just regrets. I could have had that life, but for the choices that I made. At the time the choices I made were the right one, and I still think they were, but it led me on a path I never envisioned. I guess that is the way it is.

I wish they know just how precious life is, especialy theirs. It's just a normal life, nothing spectacular, but it is a life worth living, and some of us would give anything to live it for just one day.