Please Please Please Let Me Get What I Want
Yeah I know that this is the title of an old Smith's song, and, well I might as well start this post off the same way. I haven't had a dream in a long time. It's so true, for years I have never had a dream, a goal that was solely my own. It hit me the other day. I've been living vicariously through others for far too long, especially through A and J. It always seams that I go along with what their dreams are, and trick myself into thinking that it is what I want. Now granted, by doing that i have done a lot of things that I would probably never have tried. They were the ones that got me hooked on rock climbing even though I was never interested in it before. But that is not the point. The point is that I was never really living my life, i was copying theirs, I I don't want that any more. I want to have my own thing, my own dreams again.
The Bible says that "if your eye makes you stumble tear it out" I think that the point of this statement is that at times you have to take drastic measures to fix the things in your life. I've mentioned before just how stressed out I've been at work, and I decided to do exactly that. I filled an application for a leave of absence, for 3 months. I've always wanted to travel, and I figure this is the time to do it. I've also decided to go it alone, to see the world on my own terms. I know it will be tough, and expensive, but it is something I need to do, and something I need to do alone, just so I can find myself. The time off is in December, and I still don't have any clue as to where i want to go. I've seen Europe so I want to try something else. I've always wanted to see Kenya and Egypt, so maybe that will be a start.
This may be the start of something big, but it is still a start, what happens form there, we'll have to wait and see.
The Bible says that "if your eye makes you stumble tear it out" I think that the point of this statement is that at times you have to take drastic measures to fix the things in your life. I've mentioned before just how stressed out I've been at work, and I decided to do exactly that. I filled an application for a leave of absence, for 3 months. I've always wanted to travel, and I figure this is the time to do it. I've also decided to go it alone, to see the world on my own terms. I know it will be tough, and expensive, but it is something I need to do, and something I need to do alone, just so I can find myself. The time off is in December, and I still don't have any clue as to where i want to go. I've seen Europe so I want to try something else. I've always wanted to see Kenya and Egypt, so maybe that will be a start.
This may be the start of something big, but it is still a start, what happens form there, we'll have to wait and see.
posted by The Cube at 2:48 PM
2 Comments:
What a courageous thing to do--to want something and go for it, knowing it won't be easy. Although, it might seem weird for me to say this--um, not knowing you and all :)-- but the timing seems good to me.
And, much can be gained from a break from routine and solitude, I think.
Wow! That is awesome. I think it would be a good idea if more people took advantage of the freedom of being single or without kids & did more things like traveling & such. There is a lot to be learned from seeing the world. I read a book once called "Tales of a Female Nomad" about a woman who's husband divorced her when they were middle aged & then she just decided to travel around & live in different places for bits of time. She had some amazing experiences.
I hope that you don't give up on your dreams & that you stay committed to do what it takes to get them. And like what Laurie said, you are & will be a courageous man to do persue your dreams.
Dream high!
Alis
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