Buying Myself Out From Debt
Is it possible to buy back your soul?
The last 6 months or so, I've involved myself in a lot of volunteer work. Mainly dealing with my church, renovating some, building homes for those less fortunate, things like that. I chose to do this because I had this unspoken urge to do so. I've never been one to give money to charity. I've always been bothered by the fact that the vast majority of money that people give goes to the administration rather than for the ones that truely need it. I figured that since I had a skilled trade, I would much rather give my time and effort to help others. It has brought me great joy to do it.
This last weekend we were doing a huge reno job, compleatly restoring a house for a poor family. I had a great time working there, and I met some really great people. But some one asked me why it is that I was doing this. I gave the prefunctory answer that I'm doing it to give back. However I begain to think about that more and more durring the day.
I have done a lot of really bad things in my life, things that I am definatly not proud of, things that I need to pay for. Could it be in my quest to expunge the demons of my past, I have delved in to charity to pay for the things I have done? The more I think about it the more I feel that that is the case. But the question now arises can I ever really cover the costs of my sins?
The last 6 months or so, I've involved myself in a lot of volunteer work. Mainly dealing with my church, renovating some, building homes for those less fortunate, things like that. I chose to do this because I had this unspoken urge to do so. I've never been one to give money to charity. I've always been bothered by the fact that the vast majority of money that people give goes to the administration rather than for the ones that truely need it. I figured that since I had a skilled trade, I would much rather give my time and effort to help others. It has brought me great joy to do it.
This last weekend we were doing a huge reno job, compleatly restoring a house for a poor family. I had a great time working there, and I met some really great people. But some one asked me why it is that I was doing this. I gave the prefunctory answer that I'm doing it to give back. However I begain to think about that more and more durring the day.
I have done a lot of really bad things in my life, things that I am definatly not proud of, things that I need to pay for. Could it be in my quest to expunge the demons of my past, I have delved in to charity to pay for the things I have done? The more I think about it the more I feel that that is the case. But the question now arises can I ever really cover the costs of my sins?
posted by The Cube at 3:22 PM
1 Comments:
I do think we can make amends--or try to--but that even our best efforts can fall short. That's why forgiveness can't be earned; it is a gift. So thank God that He gives it in abundance through His grace. I believe we are neither too good or too bad for God's love and grace; both assumptions are equally arrogant.
Thanks for the thought provoking post. It's so important to keep motivations in check, but it's not so easy to decipher them all the time.
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