Stars

Finaly the clouds have parted, physicaly, not figuritavely. It has been over cast for about 3 weeks now. Never really raining, just a little mist and drizzle now and then. At least tonight, it is clear, and I can finaly see the stars.

I find looking at the stars fills me with this sense of awe, but in a way that is different than most would think. I have always had this impression that some people were just unaproachable, larger than life. It is a self esteem issue on my part. I find it difficult to trust people, mainly due to my experiances so far have taught me that most people just can not be trusted. That contributes to me putting myself down, thinking that I am alone in this world.

But when I look up at night and see the stars, and reflect on the sheer scale of them. The vast distances, the enormous power, the massive sizes, I feel small, but in a good way. Because not only am I a small week human, but so is everyone else. It puts us all on the same page, on the same scale. It is at these times that I truely feel equal. It is at these times that I truely feel free of what weighs me down, because I don't compare myself with others in a harsh light. I don't see myself or anyone in any light because all that matters is what is happining in the grand scheme. If only everyone sees like this. We don't need to put one another under the microscope. The darkness covers up the flaws and shows just the beauty. If only we could all live in the dark with just the stars to light our way.