Boxes In The Basement
Over the weekend I was going through some boxes and junk that have piled up in the storage room in the basement. I only got through 2 boxes though. In the first I found an old toy Esso Gas Station from Playmobil. When I was a kid I used to play with it all the time with my brothers. Those were fun times, when there was no worries, no drama, just kids having fun.
The other box had some old school books, binders, and at one time my most precious possession, my old walkman. But it was not the walkman that almost brought me to tears, it was what was inside it. The first tape I was ever given, a homemade compelation of a bunch of The Smiths songs. I remember clearly the day I got it. I always had a radio in my room, and I would listen to it every night as I lay in bed. But at that time I rarely listened to music, I usualy listened to hockey or baseball games, or other sport talk radio programs. One day my parents got me a walkman as a gift. Of course I didn't have any tapes, I was more interested in the radio on it. But my cousin decided to make me a couple of tapes he recorded of his cassests and records. But it was the Smiths tape that stood out the most in my mind.
That one tape changed my life. It spoke to me in a way I never thought posible. It seams af it the Siths had a way of articulating the feelings I have inside. It wasn't me identifying with the music, but rather I felt as if it was speaking for me, as an advocate. I could take solace in the fact that others felt the same way. I wasn't alone. The music of the Smiths have done that to a lot of people. It's true what they say, it's music that saved my life, it gave me the strenght to continue all these years.
That one tape turned me into a music fan. And I have always had that affinity for the smiths, I have tons of their records, singles, and CD's. But finding that one tape, it brought me back. It also is bringing me forwards. It was the boost I needed at the right time. And now I have the gas to go a little further.
It also inspired me to change a little. I now have that old Esso station set up the spare room and I try to play with it every day. I know it seems foolish for a grown man to play with toys but I need to feel like I did when I was a kid again. I want to recapture the feelings of joy and peace that come from not worring of the problems I have to face day in and day out. Maybe if we all played a bit more and listened to the music, life would be a little better.
The other box had some old school books, binders, and at one time my most precious possession, my old walkman. But it was not the walkman that almost brought me to tears, it was what was inside it. The first tape I was ever given, a homemade compelation of a bunch of The Smiths songs. I remember clearly the day I got it. I always had a radio in my room, and I would listen to it every night as I lay in bed. But at that time I rarely listened to music, I usualy listened to hockey or baseball games, or other sport talk radio programs. One day my parents got me a walkman as a gift. Of course I didn't have any tapes, I was more interested in the radio on it. But my cousin decided to make me a couple of tapes he recorded of his cassests and records. But it was the Smiths tape that stood out the most in my mind.
That one tape changed my life. It spoke to me in a way I never thought posible. It seams af it the Siths had a way of articulating the feelings I have inside. It wasn't me identifying with the music, but rather I felt as if it was speaking for me, as an advocate. I could take solace in the fact that others felt the same way. I wasn't alone. The music of the Smiths have done that to a lot of people. It's true what they say, it's music that saved my life, it gave me the strenght to continue all these years.
That one tape turned me into a music fan. And I have always had that affinity for the smiths, I have tons of their records, singles, and CD's. But finding that one tape, it brought me back. It also is bringing me forwards. It was the boost I needed at the right time. And now I have the gas to go a little further.
It also inspired me to change a little. I now have that old Esso station set up the spare room and I try to play with it every day. I know it seems foolish for a grown man to play with toys but I need to feel like I did when I was a kid again. I want to recapture the feelings of joy and peace that come from not worring of the problems I have to face day in and day out. Maybe if we all played a bit more and listened to the music, life would be a little better.
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