Windows to the soul
They say the eyes are the windows to the soul. That just one look could say more than any words could. I always thought that was just sentimental nonsence, but now I am starting to believe it.
"Anna" is a freind of mine. I'll be honest, if this were a diferent time and place, I would want to be more than just friends with her. Actualy in this time and place I would like her and me to be more than friends. She is what I would call very cute, 5'4", jet black hair that I know she dyes, but she wont admit it. We have known each other for about a year now, and have gotten very comfortable with each other. Even though I do have a little crush on her, I kept it to my self. I know that we will only be friends and nothing more. There is too much of an age gap primarily, she's 18 I'm 25 perhaps not so much of a gap in the long run, but right now it is. There are other reasons too. Because of that, I never pursued anything. However, the other day we were talking, and the conversation turned to if we could change anything, what would we change. I mused a bit too much about what I would think would happen if we were the same age. I knew I shoulden't but I wasn't thinking. She didn't say anything then about it.
Last night I was at a friends house and Anna happened to be there too. I could tell she was thinking about what was said a few nights earlier. I wanted to talk to her but I knew it wasn't the time. I looked over at her, and she looked at me. I looked straight in to her eyes, when I saw it. The look both thrilled and terified me. It was probebly for only a fraction of a second, but to me it seamed like it lasted for hours. I knew her answer just by that look. The look said that even though the idea of an "us", Anna and myself, was interesting, now wasn't the time. There may never be a time, but we will always be friends.
It wasn't until later that night that we had a chance to be alone and talk. Even then very little was said. I said sorry for bringing it up, and she said not to be sorry, she wanted to know. Usualy when a girl I like say that there will never be anything between us, I get pretty down on myself. This time, I didn't. Anna and I are friends, and even though us together would be nice, I am happy just being friends. I haven't been this close friends to a girl since "Jen" left, and I don't want to lose that friendship. Who knows what the future will bring?
"Anna" is a freind of mine. I'll be honest, if this were a diferent time and place, I would want to be more than just friends with her. Actualy in this time and place I would like her and me to be more than friends. She is what I would call very cute, 5'4", jet black hair that I know she dyes, but she wont admit it. We have known each other for about a year now, and have gotten very comfortable with each other. Even though I do have a little crush on her, I kept it to my self. I know that we will only be friends and nothing more. There is too much of an age gap primarily, she's 18 I'm 25 perhaps not so much of a gap in the long run, but right now it is. There are other reasons too. Because of that, I never pursued anything. However, the other day we were talking, and the conversation turned to if we could change anything, what would we change. I mused a bit too much about what I would think would happen if we were the same age. I knew I shoulden't but I wasn't thinking. She didn't say anything then about it.
Last night I was at a friends house and Anna happened to be there too. I could tell she was thinking about what was said a few nights earlier. I wanted to talk to her but I knew it wasn't the time. I looked over at her, and she looked at me. I looked straight in to her eyes, when I saw it. The look both thrilled and terified me. It was probebly for only a fraction of a second, but to me it seamed like it lasted for hours. I knew her answer just by that look. The look said that even though the idea of an "us", Anna and myself, was interesting, now wasn't the time. There may never be a time, but we will always be friends.
It wasn't until later that night that we had a chance to be alone and talk. Even then very little was said. I said sorry for bringing it up, and she said not to be sorry, she wanted to know. Usualy when a girl I like say that there will never be anything between us, I get pretty down on myself. This time, I didn't. Anna and I are friends, and even though us together would be nice, I am happy just being friends. I haven't been this close friends to a girl since "Jen" left, and I don't want to lose that friendship. Who knows what the future will bring?
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